guests

"oh yeah, they were here,

but i didn't even look at their faces

i was looking down, didn't have the courage to just look at their eyes.



okay, i was scared. but i will try to do it next time.."



"of course"




uuuuugh, she always says that to me, she's always patient. she's always waiting.

but my answer is always no.

i really really want to. i really want to show her. to make her proud.

i am counting on the 'next time' to come




but what will happen if next time is not going to visit?